I worked my ass off but others get the credits, I try SO hard but others will not cooperate with me. and at the end it seems like everything is my fault...I really dont know what I should do at times...

Why cant I get a guy who loves me? why cant I get the life full of adventures? why cant i get the good grades? why cant I be the daughter my parents can be proud to say that's MY daughter? why cant I just be me around people I care about?

I care about others and I dont want them to hurt at all at least because of me...but I have come to realize I am hurting inside no matter how much I try to hide it!!! Some of the people I do not want to hurt have hurt me, while the others have not realize I am hurting...only that handful of them sees it and have reached out to me. I'm grateful for those people!! they are the only reason why I keep doing things the way i do them but now, I dont see a reason to do it that way...even those whom I think are alright are hurting me in ways I didnt think possible.

well i just wish there is someone there for me, to tell me that he thinks of me everyday and his feelings for me is worldwide... say that the world would stop just by looking into my arms or even just by holding me... yes all these are cheesy and nonsense but how I wish I also can get that fairy tale ending or the fantasy story lines... I guess not cos I have to face up to reality I need to look at it in a 'mature' way but no one have been mature, no one knows what it is like to be mature because we are always learning and even the adults will learn something from kids at times...so what I am saying is there is no way I will ever get that

well nuff of all the rants but who reads here anyway right? kay bye

with loads of ♥.7:08 PM